anytime a guy says “that’s what she said” always reply with “not to you”
I used to, and still do, go through the self harm tag when I feel low. It is not a good idea and it left me hurting myself for a good two years now, I got extremely depressed and felt there was no way I could get better, I thought of suicide everyday, I lost focus and track of school because my mind was telling me ‘dont worry..you dont have to pay attention..you wont live much longer so it would all be a waste’ I lost interest in my usual hobbies and only found interest in the gym, eating, and hurting myself. I would constantly put myself down and if someone complimented me I would neglet what they were saying because I wouldnt believe it, recently I stopped hiding behind and smile and my family kept asking why I was so moody, when in reality I was just trying to break down that wall, for the past two years my cousins life has been practically ruined, her dad had an affair, was about to leave, said horrible things to my family and had said and done things that not even my cousin knows about, and no matter how badly I want to tell her how much I hate her dad, I cant. She got extremely depressed, tried self harming, she barely gets out of bed anymore and my mum asked if I could email her a few days ago, to which I replied ‘yes, I know, but she knows how I feel too and doesnt bother contacting me’ which I did not mean, I was just feeling crap, to which my mum replied ‘megan you know what shes been through, she has a reason’ and I said ‘I know she has a reason, and I dont have a bloody reason so I have no clue why Im sad’ and we had a large heart to heart and I came out to her about being depressed and bipolar and I guess what I’m trying to say is that (even though noone will read this far, and if you do..hi I love you, stay strong) if you are keeping how you feel a secret please tell your parents, get the weight of your sadness off your shoulders and please help somebody carry your baggage, it is not right to suffer alone, or in silence, sometimes you need to be your own hero, and sometimes you need to be the damsel in distress, please stay strong guys, you cant have rainbow without a little bad weather, it may be cloudy now but it cannot rain forever. I love you. I love you. I love you. Okay.
what must i do in order to get laid?